The Wall

I am so effing frustrated with the lack of communication in my marriage. Tonight I needed to talk through some frustrations with Dana. I tried, but I felt unsuccessful. My anxiety is at an all time high right now. It takes seemingly trivial things to set it off. I told him about my frustration and that I felt like there is a wall between us. I know he is thinking, but about what- of course I don't know. We are having a birthday party For Ellie with my family and Dana's tomorrow night. On Sunday, Sean will be Baptized and after that, we will have lunch at our house. I get so worked up in anticipation to these types of events. That's where I am right now. I know I need to come down, but I am feeling unable to right now.