This is it

I have decided I will not be going back to my school next year. I absolutely cannot my mental I can't. My mental and physical health are suffering tremendously. I had a really good session with my therapist yesterday. It was the first time in the 6 months I have been seeing her that I cried. She is convinced that I have PTSD as a result of the incident. Until recently, I wasn't sure I believed that. I am now convinced. I meet with my Cardiologist in 9 days to go over everything- all of the heart testing and sleep study results. I am incredibly anxious to know what's going on. My therapist said it well when she said I'm in a "holding pattern" until a diagnosis is made. Until then I am working on focusing on things I can control. I just need to leave the toxic environment I have been in for almost 7 years. It has done so much damage. :/